Nun Magdalena (Nacheva)
nun Magdalena writes:
"When, after many years, many trials of our family, many sins and falls,
the Lord wanted to enlighten me and draw me to himself, it happened like this. I
was about 16 years old. My father was in prison, and I and my mother went to church
on Good Friday evening in the temple of "St. Nedelya - Kiriakia". This time I went without
protests and stood calmly; it was good for me in the temple. The next day, late
in the evening, we went again to hear "Christ is risen!" It was the first
Easter we would celebrate alone, without my father, and we were sad. In addition,
we were also worried about our future - my mother did not have a job. We waited
a long time for the service to begin. We were seated on the steps of the royal throne.
St. A cross still stood in the middle of the church with three large candles on
it, lit according to Bulgarian custom. He kept catching my eye. The service began
and shortly before they took St. Cross (before they came out for "Christ is
Risen"), I looked at it and thought: "They say that Christ died for the
sins of us all, is that really so?" And suddenly something unusual happened
to me: it was as if some veil fell from my heart's eyes and some power passed through
my whole being! Everything changed in me - another person was discovered in me,
with other thoughts and feelings. I was filled with extraordinary joy and melted
in God's presence. God revealed himself to me and I saw Him with the eyes of my
heart, I believed in Him and no one and nothing in the world could tell me that
there is no God!... My mother asked me if I was not sorry that I was so pale , but
at that moment the clergy went out, so did we, and she ceased to deal with me. I
was beside myself, my heart was burning, I could not see anything, nor did I hear.
When we then returned to the church and the bishop began to read in Bulgarian the
word of St. John Chrysostom, I listened, stretched like a string, and every word
hit my heart and inflamed it even more. My mother fearfully suggested that we stay
for the Liturgy as well, I nodded affirmatively, but I wanted to stay in the temple
forever, not to leave it, to be with the Lord.
